Not An Angel

To begin with, I am someone who has a sign of reminder that says "BE CALM & xXxX All" sticked on the wall of my cubicle due to some constrains that are happening at work - I just want to make sure I am reminded to keep my mouth shut in the aura of the impossibles :)

And ...

I must admit - it surprises me the reminder helps ! :) I guess it's because the few words written are words that are not normally posted on a work wall - my eyes goes to the words very often in a day - I hope this will be a long time solution for me in the taking responsibility of the outcome of my emotion when they are not properly controlled. In that, I had a gentle quiet comment from a colleague who said, "I would like to advice that you take the post down and have it sticked on your desk instead. It is not appropriate - what is written." "But it helps. And you know things has been rough for me." That was all I could say. And yeah, he does know - he sits beside me. And he kept quiet afterwards.

While being a strong hearted, headed and minded person at work, I am actually quite a kitten at home - sometimes I think I love my family too much, I give too much of myself - I am taken for granted. I was recently told, "If you are as how you are (I can be quite traditional in some ways of life that may not be considered a plus thing for this generation), you will end up losing us all." I guess when the statement was made, some facts are forgotten. It takes 2 to make things work and everyone have their limits, and I am probably at the line of my limits - but I am glad I was able to just be quiet about the situation - and while that happens, it strikes me, "Hmph ! I am not at my limit yet !" I stand bewildered !

All in all, I am a 33, single, independant, loving girl who is seeking something more meaningful in life. I hope I will find what I am seeking for very soon - in the next minute if possible ! :)

Btw, if there is a fish heaven, I think the Atlantic Pilchards must be fish angels - they are awsomely beautiful in their own rights ! :)

ps : I am but who I am, and while I do sometimes wish I am someone else, I think I am happy being me ! :)